My Story

Here is my story of how my life changed because I made the choice to surrender my life to Christ.

In high school I began a search for happiness. If you would have known me in high school you would have known I longed for what I called Ultimate Bliss. This was another way to say complete happiness or joy.  I was a happy person, but I just felt like there had so be something more.

I began looking for happiness  in many things -> relationships with friends, boyfriends, weight loss, acceptance, but they were never enough.  At this point in my life I knew who God was and I knew some things about him, but I did not know he desired a personal relationship with me.

Then, I entered college with the mind set of how can I find fulfillment. I searched, but I never found it.

Finally, I realized that nothing on this earth could fill that void in my heart. Nothing. After many nights of heart ache and asking if this was all there was, I began to read the bible for the first time. I began to finally understand that only through a personal relationship with Jesus could I find complete satisfaction.

After realizing this, I learned that God loves me and has a wonderful plan for my life. I learned that I was broken and searching, but God was perfect and holy. God desires to be with us, but in between us stood a wall of all my sins, my past, and my failures. Since God wanted so badly for us to be together in a relationship he sent his son Jesus down to be a bridge over our sin.

Before college I knew about God, and I knew Jesus was there, but not until college did I make the individual choice to walk across the bridge of Jesus and leave my old self behind. It was only then when I made the decision to walk across that bridge and begin a personal relationship with God that I could experience pure joy.

I am continuing to learn and process what this all means. But I do know that since crossing that bridge, I have experienced more ultimate bliss than ever before.

Some days I still struggle with thinking other things will give me joy, but I remind myself of how those things took joy away from me, while Jesus continues to give me joy.